impatient.

Monday, 10 March 2014

well, baby wan's due date came and went yesterday and still no sign of him at all.  we're both getting quite impatient and are really excited to meet him.  i am most definitely ready to return back to the non-pregnant me and sleeping on my front again, at least for what little sleep i will be getting. 

throughout the whole pregnancy i have been thinking a lot about what my hopes are for this baby.  i remember reading a quote from the great michael j fox once that said it is important that we don't use our kids as a means for us to live out our own failed dreams and aspirations - so true.  i think i mostly want this child, and any future children, to develop their own sense of self and to have as many experiences as they can so they broaden their minds and tolerance.  and i want them to be brave enough to go out and do things that scare them and not let fear be a barrier to them.  i'd like them to learn to form their own opinions and ideas and to question why things are the way they are, and ask whether they have to be so.  i really hope that, in spite of the motherly urge to keep them close by and protect them from harm, i can overcome that and encourage them to go out and seek what it is that they strive for. 

i really love this quote from the curious case of benjamin button, a letter that he writes to his daughter, which pretty much sums up how i feel about things too:

"for what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be.  there's no time limit, start whenever you want.  you can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing.  we can make the best or the worst of it.  i hope you make the best of it.  i hope you see things that startle you.  i hope you feel things you never felt before.  i hope you meet people with a different point of view.  i hope you live a life you're proud of.  if you find you're not, i hope you have the courage to start all over again."

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